A work of philosophy by Patrick Hunter

I AM

How the Universe Comes to Know Itself

It begins with a single question: can nothing exist? Follow the answer honestly and it leads, one necessary step at a time, through stars, life and memory, to the most familiar words you know.

  • Four parts
  • Thirty-six chapters
  • One unbroken argument
Book cover of I AM: How the Universe Comes to Know Itself by Patrick Hunter: a cosmic human face formed from a golden spiral galaxy
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The question that changes everything

Can nothing exist?

Not an empty roomNot darknessNot silence

The total absence of anything at all: no space, no time, no possibility of anything ever being otherwise.

Most books about existence choose a side first and argue for it afterwards. I AM begins with this question instead, and follows its answer wherever it leads.

Where it leads is the book.

Book cover of I AM: How the Universe Comes to Know Itself by Patrick Hunter: a cosmic human face formed from a golden spiral galaxy

About the book

Not a story to be enjoyed. An argument to be followed.

I AM: How the Universe Comes to Know Itself makes an unusual claim: that reality can be reasoned to, step by step, the way a proof is reasoned to, with nothing admitted that the argument has not earned.

From one starting point, Patrick Hunter builds outwards through structure, gravity, time and light; through the first living things, memory and the boundary of the self; to consciousness, freedom, God and death. It is philosophy written for the general reader, and it asks only that you follow it, and check it, at every step.

  • Existence
  • Time
  • Consciousness
  • The Self
  • Free Will
  • God
  • Mortality
The Impossibility of Nothing The Drawing Together The Pulse of the Universe The Speed of Reality The First Living Things Carrying the Past Forward The Pause Before Response The Emergence of Consciousness You Are the Unfolding The Present Does Not Pass You Are Not Separate The Structure Knows Itself What Has Always Been Meant by God A Universe No One Witnesses The Boundary The End of I

A journey beyond the ordinary

Four movements. One unbroken chain.

Every chapter rests on the one before it. Nothing is assumed along the way, and nothing is skipped, from the impossibility of nothing to the moment you recognise yourself in the argument.

Original artwork for Part One: Structure and relation
Structure and relation

Part One

The Necessary Structure of Reality

Why something must exist, what it must be like in order to exist at all, and why it can never stand still. A path that runs through gravity, time and the speed of light, and reaches back before the Big Bang.

Chapters 1 to 11

Original artwork for Part Two: The first living things
The first living things

Part Two

Structure as Lived Reality

From the death of a star to the first living things in the deep ocean, and on to memory, the boundary of the self, and the brief pause in which a mind first begins to look.

Chapters 12 to 20

Original artwork for Part Three: Presence
Presence

Part Three

Consciousness as Structured Presence

One and many. How separate minds still meet. What time is when it is lived rather than measured, and why you cannot step outside any of it.

Chapters 21 to 28

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Totality

Part Four

The Interpretation of Totality

Freedom and determination, the great traditions of philosophy, what has always been meant by God, and the question most readers have been waiting for.

Chapters 29 to 36

Reality is not only something that is. Through you, it is something that is known.

From I AM · Chapter 27, The Structure Knows Itself

Glimpses inside

Thirty-six steps, from nothing to you

Six of the chapters, and the questions they set out to answer. The answers are in the book.

Chapter 1

The Impossibility of Nothing

Not empty space, not darkness: the total absence of anything. Could it ever have been?

Chapter 6

The Drawing Together

Why does everything that exists lean towards everything else?

Chapter 9

Time

Why does time only ever move one way, and what is it made of?

Chapter 13

The First Living Things

How does chemistry cross the threshold into something that keeps itself alive?

Chapter 20

The Emergence of Consciousness

At what point does a living thing begin to undergo its own life?

Chapter 35

The End of I

The question beneath every other question: what happens when I die?

Why read I AM?

For anyone who has ever asked why there is anything at all.

This is a book for the curious, the sceptical and the quietly searching: readers who would rather follow an argument than be handed a conclusion.

  1. 01It asks to be checked, not believed.

    Every claim is earned from the one before it. Where the book meets established science or philosophy it says so plainly. Where it parts company, it says that too.

  2. 02It goes all the way.

    From the Higgs field and colliding black holes to grief, love and compassion: one unbroken line of reasoning, from the deepest structure of the cosmos to the feeling of being you.

  3. 03It meets the great thinkers on equal terms.

    Parmenides, Descartes, Spinoza, Hume, Kant, Husserl, Parfit and many more: what each one saw clearly, and where each one stopped short.

  4. 04It takes on the hardest questions directly.

    Are your choices truly yours? What has the word God always been reaching for? What happens when you die? Each is faced head on, with no comforting shortcuts.

  5. 05It is not a religious book, nor a dismissive one.

    Written by someone with no allegiance to any faith, it nonetheless arrives at the question of God, and treats every tradition it meets with respect.

  6. 06It was a lifetime in the making.

    The question at its heart grew slowly over close to forty-five years of reading, travel and attention to how people everywhere make sense of existence.

This is not an easy book, and it does not try to be.

From I AM · Introduction
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Meet the author

Patrick Hunter

A writer, a philosopher, a father and a grandfather. His life has run from busking on the Champs-Élysées to a career travelling the world; he now lives quietly in rural Lancashire, where he writes.

At fourteen he handed his English teacher an essay describing the universe as being inside a football. It earned a B-minus. The questions behind it never went away, and decades of travel, reading and reflection later, they became this book.

Writer · Philosopher

Book cover of I AM: How the Universe Comes to Know Itself by Patrick Hunter: a cosmic human face formed from a golden spiral galaxy

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I AM

How the Universe Comes to Know Itself

by Patrick Hunter

A single chain of reasoning, from the impossibility of nothing to the moment reality becomes present to itself, written to be followed, tested and lived with.

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“It begins with something so familiar that it is almost never questioned.”From I AM · Introduction